trust

Today I was watching a recording of the last episode of the Amazing Race and the last challenge they had to complete before being checked in at the pit stop was to park scooters or dance in the street and collect a certain amount of money and then travel to an orphanage and give them the money you earned. BUT on the table at the orphanage, there was a sign that said you had to give ALL the money in your possession to get your clue. Many teams gave the money they earned dancing and parking scooters, but not all their money. They went all the way to the pit stop only to have the host tell them that before they could be checked in they had to go back and give ALL of their money.

I feel like this exact situation is similar in life when it comes to trusting God. A lot of times we trust him with many areas of our lives, but not quite all of them. God wants us to place all our hopes and feelings in him and leave them there for his use. If we don’t trust God with EVERYTHING in our lives, then we cannot move on to the next thing that God has for us. We end up backtracking in order to get our heart and spirit in the right place with the Lord, surrendering everything to him so that we are able to walk out the call God has on each of our lives. I believe that God is calling us all to surrender our WHOLE life to him. My life is a testimony of that. Like i mentioned in my first post, at revcamp, with God’s help, my priorities were rearranged and God was put at the top and i have decided to fully offer up my life to the Lord, and I am telling you, that nothing but blessings have followed since that moment! So much so, that my prayer now is God how will you top that? There is such a peace and comfort in knowing that you are walking out God’s plan for your life. My mind is just clueless as to what God has planned next for me and my life!

God lead me in your ways and help me to continually give things up to you that become a distraction to me in my walk with you. Reveal to me areas of my life that I am not content and then help me to be satisfied with your plan.

rejoice

In regards to the video that I posted yesterday:

Not only did I post this video on my blog, but also on my Facebook as well as to many friend’s walls. If you haven’t watched the ‘180 movie’ yet, I would recommend it. This documentary is very controversial and everyone has their own opinions about a topic such as this. That is why, just before I started posting this video on people’s Facebook walls, I questioned/second guessed myself for doing this. I didn’t want people to think that I was trying to force something at them. My whole purpose for sharing the video was to raise awareness about abortion as well as just get people thinking. So after thinking for a few minutes, I went ahead and posted the video to about 50 of my friend’s Facebook walls. After I did so, I prayed that God would prepare my heart and spirit for any negative responses that would come back to me, as I was sure there would be.

Almost immediately after posting it I started getting responses. Not necessarily good ones. I would say the majority of people I shared the video with were people from my program at school. At one point today, almost our whole class was engaged in a conversation about it before our lecture started. After our class finished I had numerous people come up to me asking me what the meaning of the film was. I probably got to talk to about 8 people in total about my opinions and beliefs on abortion. I have no regrets about posting that video. I knew that some people would have extremely strong opinions and would reject most of the video but I got to share and talk about the value of life and about God today and i wouldn’t trade that in for having people like me. If no body posts says anything or stands up for what they believe in, then who will? You can’t always lean on “Oh I’m sure someone else has this under control.” If you believe in something I strongly encourage you to be bold about it.

I would say the main topic of conversation in my program today was focused around that film. If I hadn’t posted it, they may have never even thought about some of the things they thought of today. God blessed me with the opportunities that I had to speak to different people today! Thank you Lord!

Something else interesting that happened today: About 5 of us were waiting for our conducting class to start this evening. We had about an hour and a half, so we all just went into the lecture hall and decided to do our own thing. Reading, studying, watching movies etc. I decided I would just read my Bible. I didn’t really have any urgent homework that I needed to be doing. As I am just starting to read, one of the guys looks over at me and says, “Are you reading the Bible?” He sounded confused. I said, “Yah, I read the Bible quite frequently. I try to read it every day.” Kind of shocked, he replied with, “huh, ya i know some other people who said they read the Bible too…..*pause* this is the first time I’ve actually witnessed someone actually opening up the Bible and reading it though…” Then he went back to his movie. This made me so happy, to know that God is just using the way I live my everyday life to speak to other people! Hallelujah!

Overall, a pretty crazy day, in a good way. I love being apart of the Kingdom of Heaven! God you are so good, thank you for using me and helping me to be strong and bold! I love you Lord.

“Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity. Until I come, devote yourself to the public reading of Scripture, to preaching and to teaching.” -1 Timothy 4:12-13

“Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal among you, which comes upon you for your testing, as though some strange thing were happening to you; but to the degree that you share the sufferings of Christ, keep on rejoicing; so that also at the revelation of His glory, you may rejoice with exultation. If you are reviled for the name of Christ, you are blessed, because the Spirit of glory and of God rests upon you. By no means let any of you suffer as a murderer, or thief, or evildoer, or a troublesome meddler; but if anyone suffers as a Christian, let him not feel ashamed, but in that name let him glorify God.” – 1 Peter 4:12-16

encounters

The other day I just went to the mall by myself because i had a big break at school. As i was driving back to school I was just listening to music in my car and worshiping and I just got fully filled with the Holy Spirit! It was so incredible! I thought I was going to have to pull over because I was crying. It’s so crazy, like every encounter we have with Jesus is so special, and it doesn’t have to be a public thing, it can just be private between you and the Lord. I think those are the most meaningful ones. This was a particularly emotional encounter with God because of the season of life that I am currently in. I was weeping because of how much love God has for us when we did absolutely NOTHING to deserve it. His love is endless and forever! I just cannot get over how incredible God is and the amazing things that he does and can do in our lives!

I praise God for bringing my heart and my mind to the place I am now, which is to desire and seek to know God more and dwell in his being. To pray and have fellowship in the Lord. God there is nothing I want more than to serve you and bring glory to your name! In my times of confusion i pray that you will help me to seek your counsel and direction so that I may have peace. Thank you for the Godly people you’ve placed in my life who are able to speak wisdom into me!

Lord you are sovereign!

discipline

Reign in Us by Starfield

We sang this song in church this morning, and I just was thinking the whole morning about worship, and singing songs. When we worship, are we actually thinking about the words we are singing and believing them? Sometimes I know there have been times when i feel like i cannot sing certain parts of songs because my heart doesn’t agree. That’s when i need to just stop and pray for God to change my heart.

This song says “We need your perfect love we need your discipline”. I don’t know about you, but i don’t remember the last time i prayed “Lord i need your discipline.” When things go wrong, i am definitely quick to say “Oh I’m under the attack of the devil” rather then to look at my own actions and decisions that got me to that place. It says in Proverbs 3:12 “The Lord corrects those he loves, just as a father corrects a child in whom he delights.” I need to pray and ask God to be under his discipline. Hebrews 12:11 says “No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it.”

Along with His perfect love comes discipline. I want to be trained by God’s discipline. Lord I submit myself to you, and all my faults and failures. Lord discipline me so that I may live a life that glorifies you!

blessing

I wonder by Leeland If you haven’t listened to this yet, you need to.

Jesus Christ
You bled your love, laid down yourself
And gave me life
In naked shame you hung and you were lifted high
Here I lay in awe and wonder
I am afraid
For no one’s ever sacrificed and loved me this way
So on my face I fall under your heavy grace
Here I lay in awe and wonder

The love of God is alive and great, and when I listen to this song and think about the love God has for me, i can’t help but get shivers! Our God is so incredible and He has blessed me in so many ways. I have good Christian parents that raised me to fear the Lord and to love and serve Him, I have a sister who is a rock solid woman of God and my best friend, I have an amazing church family that are supportive, encouraging and live lives that are examples of how God wants us to live. I also have friends that are answers to my prayers! God thank you for these blessings, and not only these ones but for EVERYTHING I have and for my life God. You gave me life, so it is only because of you that I live, so I am going to live my life for you!

I always feel this wonderful peace in my heart and spirit whenever I think about Jesus and how he has saved me from so many things! I can’t even begin to praise Him enough! He deserves it all, ALL the time!

Father, you amaze me! I love you. You alone hold my heart :)

 

everything

Leeland in Peru a Spanish Worship Song. Something special about this.

O Senor, dame mas de tu amor y verdad. O Senor, dame mas de tu porder y gracia O Dios. Ensename a amar, ensename a ser como tu, dame tu corazón mi Dios.

Oh Lord, give me more of your love and truth. Oh Lord, give me more of your power and grace my God. Teach me to love, teach me to be like you, give me your heart my God.

Simple words that really speak to our hearts as we seek out to grow closer to the Lord and become more like Him! Praise God for his unconditional love for us despite our sins.

God is so good. I have just been reminded today that we are never alone because God is ALWAYS with us. Wow. Even when we feel like everything is turning against us, we can rejoice because we have a loving relationship with our creator and we get to spend eternity with Him one day! I don’t know about you, but when I think about that, everything bad and stressful just disappears and doesn’t matter any more! The Lord is my strength. He calms my heart and brings peace to my mind and ultimately is my friend. All the time He is there for me. My best friend. I have the BEST best friend in the whole world! He will never leave me or forsake me! God stirred my heart today to remember that He is always near and it just brings me so much joy! I am saved! Praise God!

God you are everything good! You are everything beautiful!