perfect

Lately I’ve just been thinking a lot about the purpose that God has for my life. I know that I am walking out what God has planned for me, and this is where I am at right now. This is the season that God has for me, and I just felt God really bring be back to reality in reminding me that the things that “I want” are things my flesh wants and not necessarily what God has planned for me right now. I really feel the peace of the Lord in my heart for just being an obedient servant to him and finishing what he has started for me. God told me that the desires of my heart come from him, but he determines the order that they happen in. That was just so huge for me to realize that EVERYTHING is in His timing, and his timing is absolutely perfect!

Once I have finished what God has for me now, at Capilano, then He will bring the next thing out for me to enjoy! Another thing I have come to realize is to completely strive for emotional purity and to enjoy my single years that I have with God, distraction free! It is such a beautiful thing resting in the shadow of my creator! Father, my life is in Your hands. You provide for me moment by moment. I ask that You open my eyes to see Your unfailing love for me and help my stubborn heart to trust You fully. I know that I will not be single a day longer than You want me to be, and in that I will find rest from this mind game of wondering and waiting. Open doors of ministry for me so that I may serve where You want me to serve. Help me protect my emotions from the pitfall of having intimacy before commitment. All I could want or all that could satisfy me is wrapped up in my relationship with You. Allow me to rest in You and to fall more in love with You each day. Amen!

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thankfulness

This thanksgiving weekend has been a really good one for me. I’ve mostly only been studying for exams coming up, but it has been relaxing. Because of thanksgiving, I was obviously thinking about what I am thankful for. I won’t list them, but then I decided to do a little study on what the Bible tells us to be thankful for. I really encourage you to read all these verses, and even to look them up and read them in their context as well! God is so good and has blessed us with so much to be thankful for! There are a lot of verses, but it is encouraging to read them, and i think worth the time! Just reminds of how much we have to give thanks for!

Psalm 107:8 “Let them thank the LORD for his steadfast love, for his wondrous works to the children of man!”

Luke 18:11 “The Pharisee standing by himself, prayed thus: ‘God, I thank you that I am not like other men, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even like this tax collector.”

Romans 1:8 “First, I thank my God through Jesus Christ for all of you, because your faith is proclaimed in all the world.”

Philippians 1:3-5 “I thank my God in all my remembrance of you, always in every prayer of mine for you all making my prayer with joy, because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now.”

Colossions 3:15-16 “And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly, teaching and admonishing one another in all wisdom, singing psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, with thankfulness in your hearts to God.”

1 Chronicles 16:8 “Oh give thanks to the LORD; call upon his name; make known his deeds among the peoples!”

Psalm 30:4 “Sing praises to the LORD, O you his saints, and give thanks to his holy name.”

Psalm 79:13 “But we your people, the sheep of your pasture, will give thanks to you forever; from generation to generation we will recount your praise.”

Psalm 118:1 “Oh give thanks to the LORD, for he is good; for his steadfast love endures forever!”

Psalm 145:10 “All your works shall give thanks to you, O LORD, and all your saints shall bless you!”

Romans 6:17-18 “But thanks be to God, that you who were once slaves of sin have become obedient from the heart to the standard of teaching to which you were committed, and, having been set free from sin, have become slaves of righteousness.”

1 Corinthians 15:57 “But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.”

2 Corinthians 2:14 “But thanks be to God, who in Christ always leads us in triumphal procession, and through us spreads the fragrance of the knowledge of him everywhere.”

2 Corinthians 9:15 “Thanks be to God for his inexpressible gift!”

Ephesians 1:15-23 “For this reason, because I have heard of your faith in the Lord Jesus and your love toward all the saints, I do not cease to give thanks for you, remembering you in my prayers, that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give you a spirit of wisdom and of revelation in the knowledge of him, having the eyes of your hearts enlightened, that you may know what is the hope to which he has called you, what are the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints, and what is the immeasurable greatness of his power toward us who believe, according to the working of his great might that he worked in Christ when he raised him from the dead and seated him at his right hand in the heavenly places, far above all rule and authority and power and dominion, and above every name that is named, not only in this age but also in the one to come. And he put all things under his feet and gave him as head over all things to the church, which is his body, the fullness of him who fills all in all.”

1 Thessalonians 5:18 “give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.”

2 Thessalonians 2:13 “But we ought always to give thanks to God for you, brothers beloved by the Lord, because God chose you as the first fruits to be saved, through sanctification by the Spirit and belief in the truth.”

Psalm 100:4 “For the LORD is good; his steadfast love endures forever, and his faithfulness to all generations.”

Jonah 2:9 “But I with the voice of thanksgiving will sacrifice to you; what I have vowed I will pay. Salvation belongs to the LORD!”

I know that this really encouraged me reading all these verses! (Just for the record, I didn’t just rummage through my bible to find these, I used my concordance in the back and looked them up. That’s what a concordance is for! :)

I hope you all had a wonderful thanksgiving. I am thankful for all of you, my friends reading this! I am blessed tremendously by God for placing each of you in my life!

competetive

Tonight after Rev, was the start to the Dutch Blitz tournament. It goes on for the month of october. Anyways, I would say I am not really competitive at all, BUT Dutch Blitz is pretty much the only game that I am good at, so i guess there is a little bit of competitiveness in me. (That I didn’t know about until tonight.) So there were a bunch of tables to sit at, and you were allowed to pick. I knew that my friend Tyson was playing and he is pretty good too, so I didn’t want to sit at the same table as him. I wanted to sit where I was going to win! That’s just common sense and good strategy. Tyson called over to me and told me to go sit at a table with him, but of course i said NO! and that I DO NOT want to play at the same table as him. So i sat down with two other girls, and there was one spot left at our table and Tyson came and took it……grrrr. I was so angry! So we started playing and our score keeper wouldn’t even let us see the scores, and also, my friend dumped tea all over my back as we were playing. Anyways, the two players with the highest scores at the end move on to next week. I was very upset because all the people at  my table were good competition. I had to try really hard to win. In the end, I came in third….so i do not get to play again next week.

I don’t think I’ve ever had so much anger about a game before. I was actually mad at Tyson for sitting at that table when I told him i didn’t want to play with him, and I was clearly trying to get away from him. WHICH IS SO RIDICULOUS OF ME! Why did i feel like that!? I instantly felt convicted of this anger from my competitiveness because I know that it is just a game and it doesn’t matter, but I told myself that I was going to hold a grudge against Tyson for a full day! (That will make me feel better for sure.) WRONG! That’s not going to make me feel better. In the end, I’ve still lost and holding a grudge isn’t going to change anything. So I decided to forgive Tyson. (If you’re reading this….I sincerely forgive you for sitting at the same table as me) Then afterwords my friend told me that I can either be mad at Tyson, or pray for a wildcard! (Meaning that they’re thinking of drafting all the people who came in third!) YAY! There is hope for another chance!

I know this may seem like a really lame thing that I dealt with today, but I know that similar situations like this happen in everyone’s lives. It is so easy to get caught up in the moment, and let our emotions escalade when usually, the thing that we are all worked up about, isn’t the end of the world at all.

The new series that we are in at church for this month is called What is the Thing? If the thing you are living for is anything shy of a relationship with Jesus, then it’s not big enough. I guess it was an extremely fitting subject to talk about tonight, considering my situation. I’m not saying that I am living for Dutch Blitz, or for the feeling of winning, but in the moment, I made it into such a big deal, that it felt like that was the only thing that mattered. When, in reality, I should have just started praising Jesus, because he IS the ONLY THING that matters to me!

I can’t believe I reacted the way I did, but God has used this situation to remind me of how big and great He is, and how small and insignificant the things of this world are. Jesus is the only reason why I am living, He is the only reason TO live and He is the only one to live for! We need to come to a place to realize that our PURPOSE is to live, serve, trust, hope, obey, and glorify the Lord no matter what our circumstances may be! God help me to never loose my cool like that again, and learn from tonight’s situation so that I don’t accidentally take a step off the path you have set for me again.

You are Great and Mighty Lord!

trust

Today I was watching a recording of the last episode of the Amazing Race and the last challenge they had to complete before being checked in at the pit stop was to park scooters or dance in the street and collect a certain amount of money and then travel to an orphanage and give them the money you earned. BUT on the table at the orphanage, there was a sign that said you had to give ALL the money in your possession to get your clue. Many teams gave the money they earned dancing and parking scooters, but not all their money. They went all the way to the pit stop only to have the host tell them that before they could be checked in they had to go back and give ALL of their money.

I feel like this exact situation is similar in life when it comes to trusting God. A lot of times we trust him with many areas of our lives, but not quite all of them. God wants us to place all our hopes and feelings in him and leave them there for his use. If we don’t trust God with EVERYTHING in our lives, then we cannot move on to the next thing that God has for us. We end up backtracking in order to get our heart and spirit in the right place with the Lord, surrendering everything to him so that we are able to walk out the call God has on each of our lives. I believe that God is calling us all to surrender our WHOLE life to him. My life is a testimony of that. Like i mentioned in my first post, at revcamp, with God’s help, my priorities were rearranged and God was put at the top and i have decided to fully offer up my life to the Lord, and I am telling you, that nothing but blessings have followed since that moment! So much so, that my prayer now is God how will you top that? There is such a peace and comfort in knowing that you are walking out God’s plan for your life. My mind is just clueless as to what God has planned next for me and my life!

God lead me in your ways and help me to continually give things up to you that become a distraction to me in my walk with you. Reveal to me areas of my life that I am not content and then help me to be satisfied with your plan.

rejoice

In regards to the video that I posted yesterday:

Not only did I post this video on my blog, but also on my Facebook as well as to many friend’s walls. If you haven’t watched the ‘180 movie’ yet, I would recommend it. This documentary is very controversial and everyone has their own opinions about a topic such as this. That is why, just before I started posting this video on people’s Facebook walls, I questioned/second guessed myself for doing this. I didn’t want people to think that I was trying to force something at them. My whole purpose for sharing the video was to raise awareness about abortion as well as just get people thinking. So after thinking for a few minutes, I went ahead and posted the video to about 50 of my friend’s Facebook walls. After I did so, I prayed that God would prepare my heart and spirit for any negative responses that would come back to me, as I was sure there would be.

Almost immediately after posting it I started getting responses. Not necessarily good ones. I would say the majority of people I shared the video with were people from my program at school. At one point today, almost our whole class was engaged in a conversation about it before our lecture started. After our class finished I had numerous people come up to me asking me what the meaning of the film was. I probably got to talk to about 8 people in total about my opinions and beliefs on abortion. I have no regrets about posting that video. I knew that some people would have extremely strong opinions and would reject most of the video but I got to share and talk about the value of life and about God today and i wouldn’t trade that in for having people like me. If no body posts says anything or stands up for what they believe in, then who will? You can’t always lean on “Oh I’m sure someone else has this under control.” If you believe in something I strongly encourage you to be bold about it.

I would say the main topic of conversation in my program today was focused around that film. If I hadn’t posted it, they may have never even thought about some of the things they thought of today. God blessed me with the opportunities that I had to speak to different people today! Thank you Lord!

Something else interesting that happened today: About 5 of us were waiting for our conducting class to start this evening. We had about an hour and a half, so we all just went into the lecture hall and decided to do our own thing. Reading, studying, watching movies etc. I decided I would just read my Bible. I didn’t really have any urgent homework that I needed to be doing. As I am just starting to read, one of the guys looks over at me and says, “Are you reading the Bible?” He sounded confused. I said, “Yah, I read the Bible quite frequently. I try to read it every day.” Kind of shocked, he replied with, “huh, ya i know some other people who said they read the Bible too…..*pause* this is the first time I’ve actually witnessed someone actually opening up the Bible and reading it though…” Then he went back to his movie. This made me so happy, to know that God is just using the way I live my everyday life to speak to other people! Hallelujah!

Overall, a pretty crazy day, in a good way. I love being apart of the Kingdom of Heaven! God you are so good, thank you for using me and helping me to be strong and bold! I love you Lord.

“Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity. Until I come, devote yourself to the public reading of Scripture, to preaching and to teaching.” -1 Timothy 4:12-13

“Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal among you, which comes upon you for your testing, as though some strange thing were happening to you; but to the degree that you share the sufferings of Christ, keep on rejoicing; so that also at the revelation of His glory, you may rejoice with exultation. If you are reviled for the name of Christ, you are blessed, because the Spirit of glory and of God rests upon you. By no means let any of you suffer as a murderer, or thief, or evildoer, or a troublesome meddler; but if anyone suffers as a Christian, let him not feel ashamed, but in that name let him glorify God.” – 1 Peter 4:12-16